This is not a thread for you to talk me out of it. I am going to kill myself. I've thought it through and through, and there's nothing left for me.
I want to share it with someone and maybe talk with someone before I do it. I've set a date in the near future to do it but I'm not sharing it with anyone. I live in the United States, that's all you need to know.
My childhood was terrible and all of my family are dead. I have an uncle who's dying and a cousin left, that's it. I've had all of the worst luck in the world, and recently my only form of solace (my best friend) killed himself, so I have nothing left now.
My head is so messed up, I have no hope for the future. I have a 40 page diary I've written that made sense at the time but doesn't make sense anymore. Everything is making more sense now I have a goal and I'm actually becoming happy (well, as happy as I can be I guess) knowing that it'll all be over soon.
The world really is a cruel place. I DID NOTHING WRONG. WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAPPEN TO ME? There is no God. I'm going to kill myself because I hate this world!!!
I want to share it with someone and maybe talk with someone before I do it. I've set a date in the near future to do it but I'm not sharing it with anyone. I live in the United States, that's all you need to know.
My childhood was terrible and all of my family are dead. I have an uncle who's dying and a cousin left, that's it. I've had all of the worst luck in the world, and recently my only form of solace (my best friend) killed himself, so I have nothing left now.
My head is so messed up, I have no hope for the future. I have a 40 page diary I've written that made sense at the time but doesn't make sense anymore. Everything is making more sense now I have a goal and I'm actually becoming happy (well, as happy as I can be I guess) knowing that it'll all be over soon.
The world really is a cruel place. I DID NOTHING WRONG. WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAPPEN TO ME? There is no God. I'm going to kill myself because I hate this world!!!